In My Humble Opinion, March 28, 2012

It has been a while since I last updated my blog, and I have to confess it is a bit of a task to remember to do so, but I'm trying!



Today hasn't been the greatest of days: I feel very blue and I think it is because I've been going to sleep at 1:00am  instead of at a decent time.  I'm sure if I went to bed at a good time I'd feel better.

I'm also kind of dumpy because my former BFF says that she can't tell me anything because I blab.  I'm offended because I don't tell anything to anyone and if I do, I don't tell secrets.  But I guess with her, she expected everything she said to me was not to be repeated.  But I have a funny feeling that she doesn't like me anymore, but rather tolerates me.  That's ok, because she's being a bit more high and mighty ever since she got a divorce.  People change through the years indeed, but sometimes not for the better.  To each their own, but it doesn't mean that I have to be a friend to that person anymore.

I was a bit more at peace with work, however, a coworker of mine is a "know it all" and has experienced everything in the short life she has lived.  I have another friend who is a debbie downer but very sweet and very giving.  There are times I want to shake her and tell her to go to therapy because her esteem needs a boost up.  I keep my mouth shut because it is my humble opinion and no one really needs to hear them.

I try my best to stay quiet in the office and only contribute if there is funny stuff going on and makes people laugh.  My know it all colleague doesn't laugh at anything, and what's funny is my DD friend tries too hard.

I have also thought about relationships and I think at this point I don't want to be in one.  It's too much work and frankly there really isn't anyone out there.  I've been trying to make eye contact but I found myself with eyes on the floor again.  I know, it takes time and practice.  I tell myself that so I can develop my esteem but I admit there are times I want to give up.

I'm still in a bad mood, and maybe I will feel better if I sing on the road and go shopping with my mom.  Oh that's another thing - I can wear tennis shoes, but my boss says they have to be not so flashy.  I have some awesome hot pink tennis shoes that matched my outfit and also have worn them many time before.  But my boss decided today that I should wear black or brown tennis shoes.  I have to buy new ones.  While I love shopping, but I *have* to buy it.  Disgusting to be forced to buy!  :)

Anyway - I will update everyday or at least try!
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